Lost Souls

As night falls, the pain reforms. 

I let your memory awaken me, drawing me back to reality that you are no more.  

This deeply feared shadow called death has snatched you from my grip mercilessly without thinking twice. 

Oh what evil!

I refuse to believe it was your time for your eyes glowed with so much life and passion. 

How do I carry on without you? Is it possible? Could you come back? Do you want to come back? 

Oh life you're a bitch! And death is your sister. She leaves her victims lost in the three stages of grief. Denial, anger and tears! 

But the truth is no matter how much I cry, I can't bring you back. No matter how hard I lie to myself or pretend your here, my afflicted min knows the truth, you are no more. 

You are gone for good. And what hurts the most is life moves on. No matter what it won't stand still, I will have to learn to leave without you. 

'Moving on' is a necessary evil the evil being that I would have replaced you. But have I really replaced you seeing as the person still serves as a reminder of you? 

You are forever engraved in my heart. Your good deeds live on in my roots. Your smile on my veins. Your laugh in my ears. 

And if indeed life is merciful enough to give me someone like you again, I will make sure I will grasp this chance by the neck with a grip so strong it's deadly. 

I'll say the things I never told you without looking back. Do the things I always wanted us to do and love each day like there won't be a next. Once bitten twice shy. 

If only I could turn back the hands of time, I would. I love you. So wherever you are Rest in Perfect Peace. 

You may be six feet underground but you are infinitely in my heart.   

It is well with my soul. God is in control. 

               -JayB