Daddy's Little Girl 2

Daddy's Little Girl 2

Hell has no fury like a woman who hath been scorn.

I have been scorned of a father by a father.

May my fire rain down on you like brimstone. 

You left me without love and so I thought that perhaps the paradise between my legs would bring men to love me.

Perhaps it's my only worth. That's what they always wanted. That's why night after night he came into me, he was not the only one he was just the first. 

What I feel is too different from what is real, I fill my self up with narcotic drug anything to take this pain away. Reality is stranger than my dreams.  

I know what in have gone through to get over you. I've been through hell. I lived in it daily. Breathing the fumes that consumed me.

I saw an open door but never stepped out. Dancing in the flames.

Cherishing the burns more than my own life.

I let it define me!

But a saving grace so strong rescued me. It grabbed me. Mercy said no. And I screamed and yelled to go back to my bruises He just kept cleaning me up.

I was a dog, constantly running back to my vomit.

But he kept me full.

A junkie constantly inflicting pain on myself. But he became my rehab, showed me the best brand of  the drug called love.

He washed me. Beautified me.

The depth of this love is consuming. 

Engulfing my impurities. Cherishing every part of me.

Can I really explain it?

I found a friend, lover and a Father!

In Him I can trust. He is always there for me.

Holding on to what you did to me is being ungrateful to my new father.

It would be holding on to a glass that only cuts dipper and dipper. And it hurts him to see me hurt. So I let you go.

I forgive you.

-JayB